The evolving quality of life

Change. Part of life. Something to be expected,. So then, why is it that so many balk at its appearance? I'm beginning to feel the reality of lives changing around me while feeling in many ways as if I have yet to begin my own. My 19 year old brother just got married on Sarurday and suddenly I'm realizing how many people I know are in relationships, getting married, or even having children. When did that happen? Many more are off in the world pursuing careers or living the things they carry a passion for.

And I...I am in a purgatory of sorts I suppose. I know it's a positive thing and that I'm growing in the process, but I can't help wondering...when is my life going to begin in earnest? And what will it look like when it does? Hard to know, but the waiting...waiting is what I feel I've been doing my entire life. I'm ready for a change. Ready to charge off into some unknown territory if only the direction would appear. And maybe it has in a very small way, but I always seem to want more...